The Emancipation of Princess Pereira

"The past of yesterdays have been swept upshore,
anticipation of the future’s knocking at the door.
Uncertainty clouds your mind,
calling out to insecurities that bind.
Close your eyes, vanish those lies.
For all that’s not well will finally be disclosed at kiss and tell.
Birds singing sweetly as the sun sets on the horizon,
guitar strumming softly as passion burns.
Promise of eternity lingers on,
life’s battles been lost and won.
A smile sets on your face at the thought of tomorrow.
No more pain, no more sorrow.
Praying then that this will all end fast
or are you secretly hoping for it…to last?"

i felt the bullet in me
before i even heard the gun went off.
you pulled the trigger,
i just stared straight ahead, numb.
tried to walk away,
tried to run but my legs wouldn’t obey.
where could i’ve run to?
you’d have still hunted me down with every last breath.
how did it become so complicated?
how did it all end this way?
you see me writher in pain
and you walk away,
leaving me all wrecked and tainted.
can’t you see that i’m dying here?
lying here in a pool of blood,
heartbeat coming to a halt.
don’t you care at all?
wake me up, i beg of you!
breathe me life.
give me the strength to heal these wounds.
i need to know that you’d be here
by my side.
are you gonna leave or…
are you gonna stay?

Where is that little girl that I yearn to find?

Where can she be, lost between space and time?

The way her eyes light up when she smiles

Her kindness goes over the distance and miles.

By day, she puts on a mask and pretend all’s well

By night, she’s battling with her demons from hell.

How then, did that sweet, little girl disappeared?

Time reveals that she had been tormented by her fears.

When she is isolated and all alone,

Her fears come alive…to everyone else unknown

These voices…they whisper, taunt and tease

But there’s something far more vicious than them- the beast!

So she squeezes her eyes shut and screams,

"I want to wake up. This is only a bad dream!"

She hides in a corner, her eyes burden with tears.

"Leave me alone. YOU’re not here!"

Well if you see her crying, this sweet little girl,

wake me please

I’d like to hug her and tell her that she’s been missed.

There is this question that always linger in mind

And where is the the answer that I seek to find?

It has been haunting me ever since that fateful day,

wondering if I’d ever be safe on the bed that I lay.

Innocence and trust were broken

That incident was never spoken.

Feeling lost and betrayed with no one to believe in me

My world came crumbling down

Piled with burdens I could not free

That little girl lost everything;

her hopes, her dreams, her childhood.

She just draws back into herself

and hids under this hard shell as much as she could.

With no one to relate to, and no one to trust,

that ugly incident to live with, she must.

And so how I wish that I could relieve this girl of her pain.

And tell everyone, it’s your love that she wants again.

Coz the depression came in a form of abuse

leaving her heartwrenched and so very confused

…to the depths of the dark hole she now lives in.