The Emancipation of Princess Pereira

Baby, you are…

my sunny sky,
my favourite high,
my bed so warm,
my port in a storm,
my sweetest gift,
my emotional lift,
my best friend
until the end,
my inspiration,
my destination,
my shining light,
my day and night,
my heart healer,
my anger chiller,
my pain reliever,
my spring fever,
my gem so rare,
my answered prayer,
my heart and soul,
my life made whole,
my ‘merry-go-round’,
my ‘up’ when i’m down,
my best chance,
my last dance,
my energizer,
my appetizer,
my morning sun,
my evening fun,
my dancing partner,
my heart’s gardener,
my source of laughter,
my everafter,
my heaven sent
for who i’m meant,
my burning fire,
my greatest desire,
my soul mate,
my sweet fate,
my dream lover,
my ‘before all others’,
my confidence,
my common sense,
my reason why
until i die…

Happy Anniversary sweetie!
The past months have been as wonderfully exciting as a rollercoaster ride and I never want to get off. A sweet reverie but I know what we have is profoundly real…our feelings, our joy, our trials, our love. I have learnt so much from you and you have made me so happy. Truly, truly blessed!!

I love you my ‘bitch’, my ‘prince wales’, my ‘kungi’, my ‘elvis’, my ’selah orang’…and most importantly, my ‘other half’!

Time…

the essence of life.
the link to the past, present and future.
the seconds to the minutes to the hours to the days to the weeks to the months to the years.

…eternity.

What if time were to speed us by…or if it came to an abrupt halt? What if time escalated and left our souls to idle by? What if we did not have enough time to fufill our mortal desires…or savour the transcendental moments of our life?

What would you do if all you had was sixty minutes left of your creatural time before you departed for the spiritual realm?

Would you continue to live the remaining minutes as normal as possible?
Would you throw caution to the wind and start living precariously with no inhibitations?
Would you gather the courage to tell that someone how much you love them?
Would you make amends for your trespasses?
Would you leave with any regrets?
Would you wish…for more time?

What would you do?

If tomorrow I should never wake up…

If tomorrow I should never wake up
I wanted to say thank you…

If tomorrow I should never wake up
that is all I want to say just because I never had time to…

Amazing grace! How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me!
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see…

When you come to terms with what your destiny is to be, only then will you be able to embrace it fully…

I have been fighting the truth for so long, refusing that the heavens could shine on me for once. All my life, though I strived for excellence, everything usually falls at the threshold of mediocrity and the fire that used to raged within me slowly but surely burns out…and then everything is still and silent like a ghost town.

And this is NOT to say.."You’re incomplete!" or "You’re not whole!"…

But somehow along with the accustomed events, every thing becomes so mundane. I fall into some utterly banausic routine. I give up pondering on finding the successful job, the person I want to grow old with, the sole existence of my earthly life…basically, I just give up pondering!! Too energy-consuming, I decide…

Then by some stroke of luck, things start to perk up. My eyes are now wide open, my walk has a distinct bounce to it, I sit up straighter, I catch a whiff of that brewing, hot cuppa java…and boy, does it smell good! My tummy growls and suddenly I start to hunger for the things I once craved for!
Power?
Love?
Self-discovery?
My senses have somehow been awaken. Who? How? Why? The real question is, does it even matter?

I was alive once and then, I died. Now after being resurrected, the feeling though overwhelming, is definitely a welcome relief from socializing with the zombies of yesteryear.
I sigh.
I laugh.
I weep.
I stand there in the rain, soaking wet to the bone with my arms outstretched to the empyrean as if to say, Thank you! All I needed was You to feel again. Thank you for breathing life into my once effervescent soul! Thank you for never abandoning me…Thank you.

And all but once, the tune of Amazing Grace seeps from my heart, pumping renewed life into my veins. Ah truly…You are the blessed one! I have not seen but believed..having felt Your touch, Your presence, Your light… …

When you come to terms with what your destiny is to be, only then will you be able to embrace it fully and after having embraced it, I never want to live in the place I used to be at…

…the boulevard of broken dreams!